Sunday, 25 November 2007
Having a child to be a child
I took Mom to see Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium this week. I picked the movie this time. Obvious, huh? I was smiling almost the entire time. I love these movies that have to do with the magical world that exists in children.
The details of the toys were wonderful, right down to the grooves of the red, rubber balls that we used to play handball or dodge ball with.
As I was enjoying the movie, however, I realized how detached from the world of children. I don't remember what they think and care about anymore. The other day, I was interviewing some third graders and totally blanked when I tried to have a chat with them. But getting a glimpse of their creative and wonderful world through the movie really reminded me what fun a child's life is like.
Then a horrific thought crossed my mind - could it be that my biological clock is ticking away?
No. It can't be. I just want to be a child again, that's all. Every time my career plateaus a little bit, I start thinking about marrying myself off and starting a family. Then when a guy comes along and the relationship turns sour and my work begins to take off again, I don't want to marry and have children anymore. At least that's what happened the last time.
My coworker who has a two-year-old son and is pregnant with a baby girl said that her and her cameraman husband really love children, so even though they don't make much money and hardly have any free time, they're going to have another baby. But could it also be that people have children partly because they want to relive childhood one more time? I think that would be a very big reason for me. Of course, to love somebody more than anything in the world would be another reason. I guess I don't know if I would have a child because I "love children." I have no idea what's to love about children. I suppose they're cute if well behaved and would be fun to dress up. There are no children around me, so I really have no idea.
I don't know if I'll ever find anyone to marry or to have children with, but raising children certainly seems like a fun thing to do for me, a child at heart.