After blogging and then spamming friends and family about it, I just couldn't sleep. I gave up trying and took half a sleeping pill, fell asleep around four and woke up just four hours later. I don't know why. Anxiety?
Most of the day I spent catching up on reading newspapers, exercising a little bit on the elliptical machine and basically just waiting for 22h00 to come by so I could go to work. I wanted to report on what people in Taipei do for Halloween, partly because I was curious too.
After meeting my cameraman at 23h30 at the station, we left for Luxy, a night club. Nightclubs were never my preferred choice of evening destinations, and still aren't. I'm allergic to cigarette smoke, I don't drink in unfamiliar places and I am a good girl, you see. I like Mozart and I practice calligraphy for fun. Just kidding. Well, half kidding. Come to think of it, the last time I was at a night club was at the Orient in Aoyama (青山), two Halloweens ago, when Jenny, Yuko and Anna dragged me there. Jenny gave me her cat ears and tail so I could get in for free. I've always had to lie and say that if I don't get home by 24h00, my fairy godmother will turn into the Wicked Witch of the West. Actually, that's only half a lie.
At Luxy, most of the people dressed up for the occasion, and it got pretty wild, too. We got some R-rated footage, but of course, those can't be aired, so we archived them in case someone wanted to do a story on some politician getting mixed up in a nightclub scandal.
While I was doing my ending stand-up, the three foreigner guys behind me dressed (actually, half naked) in Indian costumes were dancing and doing their crazy things, and halfway through my stand-up, one of the smelly ones planted a big one on my left cheek. The color of my face got two shades redder but I kept going, and it turned out pretty funny. You can catch the story on Monday's broadcast.
By the time I got home, it was 03h00 and it was another hour before I got to bed. When I woke up, though, it was 13h25. I have never been able to sleep until so late, but something must have happened, because I didn't have a headache, I barely dreamt and I woke up feeling like a light bulb went off over my head. For the first time, I felt that things will be alright for me, and that I will succeed, no matter what I decide to do. It was more than just confidence. It's like something or someone told me that things will be fine and that I will get what I want. If that's so, I must keep pushing.